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May 14, 2010 @ 4:46 pm
I adore you, Corinne. Stef’s right – I am you and you are me, and your beautiful, graceful words speak right to my heart.
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.-= Ellie´s last blog ..WHOOSH =-.
muskrat Said,
May 14, 2010 @ 5:25 pm
Hope days 45 and on go well…
.-= muskrat´s last blog ..i’ve never been happier to be wrong =-.
robin Said,
May 14, 2010 @ 6:50 pm
I love you, Corinne. Your bravery is the perfect thing to post on this website, and you are a great example for anyone out there who wants to or is trying to quit.
seekingclarav Said,
May 14, 2010 @ 8:06 pm
“I can look at my kids and get teary not because I miss my wine, but because I’m here to witness their beauty. To be in the moment with them.” -that speaks directly into my heart, Corinne.
I think you are amazing. I’m so happy to have found you and to have your support. And you have mine.
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.-= seekingclarav´s last blog ..Just working through more shit, outloud. =-.
Corinne Said,
May 14, 2010 @ 8:48 pm
Thank you so much for having me here today Stefanie
I’m proud to say that today I’m almost at 4 months of sobriety! This was written a while ago, and while I feel more peace, I also still have those same feelings.
Thank you for your kind words
.-= Corinne´s last blog ..{Five for Ten} Courage =-.
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May 14, 2010 @ 11:57 pm
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Contemporary Troubadour Said,
May 15, 2010 @ 12:21 am
Tea for you, coffee for me, Corinne. In my case, it was and still is food that turns those eyes you speak of on me. I’m rooting for you.
.-= Contemporary Troubadour´s last blog ..Hold, hope, repeat =-.
Elizabeth (@claritychaos) Said,
May 15, 2010 @ 1:21 am
I’ll tell you over and over how proud I am of you, my friend. And you have an amazing ability to tell even dark and difficult stories with beauty.
love to you, C.
-e.
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May 15, 2010 @ 3:46 am
i wish you all the best with the next 44 days, and the next, and then the next, and the next… and so on.
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May 15, 2010 @ 6:28 am
Absolutely beautiful. Continue to say yes to you.
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May 15, 2010 @ 11:32 am
Beautiful post Corinne. I am visiting from Corinne’s site, and I have to say that I am glad I did. I don’t have a problem with alcohol (in fact, I hate the taste of it and don’t drink). I do have a problem with food though, so I can understand and relate to many aspects of alcoholism. Being addicted to food might not be the same thing, but it is certainly an addiction. At least for me.
.-= Melissa´s last blog ..random ramblings. =-.
CK Said,
May 15, 2010 @ 1:28 pm
Oh Corinne, thank you for sharing such honesty. Such raw emotion. I’m on the other side of addiction, coping with a family member who continues to struggle. Often I feel like a victim, helpless and angry. And it’s during those times that I know I need to have grace for him, and continue to love him. I know his problems aren’t about me, they’re about him. But it’s still hard. Thank you for the perspective. I needed it.
Madeline Said,
May 15, 2010 @ 7:06 pm
Corrine, this is beautiful. You have such a way of writing with honesty and genuineness. It’s inspiring even for those of us not struggling with addiction but with other life stuff.
.-= Madeline´s last blog ..Happy Two and a Half =-.
Privilege of Parenting Said,
May 16, 2010 @ 5:14 am
It’s great to see you here, Corine, healing and inspiring others as well. This is just the spirit of courage and authenticity that makes ours a better world and serves all of our kids.
Namaste
.-= Privilege of Parenting´s last blog ..That time when my dad was wrong =-.
Kir Said,
May 17, 2010 @ 2:45 pm
these stories never cease to amaze and humble me. Thank you for sharing !!!
I wish you luck and love on your journey.
I can tell that you have the inner strength to do it.
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