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Posted by Stefanie Wilder Taylor on February 12, 2010 5:08 pm • Don't Get Drunk Friday • 42 comments
Brooke Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 5:47 pm
Thank you Lisa.
.-= Brooke´s last blog ..rubies and love songs =-.
Ann's Rants Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 6:13 pm
I feel so honored that you chose to share this with us.
And so relieved that you are hear to grace us with your generosity, humor, and kindness.
Ann
.-= Ann’s Rants´s last blog ..Please do “GET ON THE FLOOR” and other bank-robbery survival nuggets =-.
Anna Lefler Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 6:27 pm
What a beautiful, humbling post.
I didn’t know I could think any more highly of you than I already did.
Thank you for sharing this.
XO
Anna
.-= Anna Lefler´s last blog ..The Big Jewel =-.
jessica Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 6:28 pm
As the ex wife of an alcoholic/drug addict, I only wish my ex had the ability to stay sober the way you have and what I mean by “the way” is staying honest with himself and really work the steps. today he doesn’t drink, he is not sober, he just doesn’t drink or drug and that is a damn shame
Lisa R. Reply:
February 12th, 2010 at 11:34 pm
You’re right Jessica – “sober” and “dry” are so different. In my experience, sober takes work but is a much easier way to live.
Heather of the EO Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 6:28 pm
Thank you, Lisa. Just thank you.
.-= Heather of the EO´s last blog ..Work (In which I’m terribly random and weird) =-.
mindy Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 6:47 pm
Thank you Lisa. That was brave and beautiful.
.-= mindy´s last blog ..for the record…Gimli is my favorite =-.
Grumble Girl Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 6:49 pm
I’m so very proud of you, woman… thanks so much for sharing your story. Wow. Incredible.
.-= Grumble Girl´s last blog ..Grrrrrrr… =-.
maggie, dammit Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 7:03 pm
Lisa, you have no idea what an inspiration you are to me. Thank you for this.
.-= maggie, dammit´s last blog ..Serenity =-.
Witt Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 7:10 pm
That is a beautiful blend of truth and humor and laid bare honesty.
Thank you so much for letting us into your life.
Wendi Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 7:15 pm
You are amazing, Betty.
robin Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 7:25 pm
Thank you for this. And congrats on 22 years, that is an accomplishment to be proud of.
.-= robin´s last blog ..Friends =-.
Lisa R. Reply:
February 12th, 2010 at 11:36 pm
Thanks Robin. It’s just single days in a row. For real. xoxo
Natika Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 7:45 pm
That was wonderful Lisa. Thank you!
Samantha Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 8:17 pm
So great. You are such a talented writer and apparently a very skilled alcoholic in your day. Can you tell me what a taxi dancer is now? But seriously, thanks for your honest and inspiring story!
Lisa R. Reply:
February 13th, 2010 at 12:51 am
Thank you ma’am.
Taxi Dancer explanation below.
I was a bad drinker and a bad dancer.
Double threat.
Amanda Feela Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 8:27 pm
Beautiful.
laurie Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 8:30 pm
Steph- notice how she doesn’t write fuck, screw it, or even suck once?
Juliet Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 9:05 pm
Thanks Lisa, this is a beautiful I also want to know what a taxi dancer is.. lol
Lisa R. Reply:
February 12th, 2010 at 11:37 pm
Ah… Taxi Dancer… See below.
xo
Ellie Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 9:20 pm
Wow. Thanks so much for sharing your experience, strength and hope – you are truly an inspiration!!
.-= Ellie´s last blog ..Smalltalk Warfare =-.
KP Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 9:45 pm
You are amazing! That was fantastic. Thank you so much for telling your story. You are an inspiration, and an awesome writer! That was a fun ride.
Lisa R. Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 9:51 pm
Thanks Everyone.
So… questions about taxi dancing. Shirley Maclaine played one in “Sweet Charity?” Tina Turner sang about it in “Private Dancer?” The awesome Pat Benatar video for “Love Is A Battlefield?”
So a Taxi Dancer, sometimes referred to as a Hostess Dancer, gets paid to dance with guys in a club. It’s especially popular in LA with Asian businessmen. The girls sit in a room behind one-way glass. If a guy picks you, your number is called and then you hang out with him in the club. It is creepy and demoralizing at best. It’s on my list of Things I Will Never Tell My Mom.
Momwith3boys Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 10:06 pm
Sunday will be Day 30 for me. Right now I feel like crying because the thought of never getting to drink another glass of Pinot Noir is depressing me. I have become a shut-in, a social mis-fit. Afraid of ever going out again. Afraid people will know my “secret”. “She can’t drink like a normal person”? “What’s up with that”?
Lisa R. Reply:
February 12th, 2010 at 11:31 pm
“Never” is too long for me to ever wrap my brain around. I was told early on to “wait another day and see what happens.” I just keep doing that and keeping it all about right now, today.
I was definitely more of a social mis-fit when I was out there drunk trying to run over my friend in a car.
You can email me directly if you want to talk more:
smacksyblog (at) gmail (dot) com.
Ginger Said,
February 12, 2010 @ 10:23 pm
Lisa, Stefanie, and all your readers: I come here each week to read the Friday post and send positive thoughts your way, that you will all get the sobriety you deserve! I work in criminal court, and I see a lot of people at their rock bottom, and I tell you this from the trenches: it is worth it to fight this fight! You guys rock, and you can be successful, you really can. Treat yourselves well!
.-= Ginger´s last blog ..The little red headed girl gets fancy =-.
Lisa R. Reply:
February 12th, 2010 at 11:39 pm
Thanks Ginger. I’m always in the market for positive thoughts!
Corinne Said,
February 13, 2010 @ 12:24 am
I so enjoyed reading your story. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. And congratulations on 22 years! That’s huge!
.-= Corinne´s last blog ..Untitled on a Thursday =-.
Nancy Said,
February 13, 2010 @ 6:25 am
What an honest, beautiful look inside that gorgeous exterior! This is why I will be showing up at your house someday like Bree Van de Camp, a basket of gluten-free muffins hanging from my elbow.
And then we will sit and laugh. And cry. And laugh again. Then cry some more.
Inevitably, one of us will blow Diet Coke out her nose.
.-= Nancy ´s last blog ..Not Peculiar But Happy (Pt III) =-.
Jane Said,
February 13, 2010 @ 8:40 am
Nicely done Lisa! 22 years is a whole lotta one’s at a time.
.-= Jane´s last blog ..Gold =-.
Nan Said,
February 13, 2010 @ 11:25 am
Beautiful, powerful story Lisa. Last night was one breath at a time, one minute at a time for me, but your story helped. My sister and I know many casualties of the 80′s, some on their death beds – thanks for this positive story.
Betsy Said,
February 13, 2010 @ 2:29 pm
Thank you, for this very raw and true story.
.-= Betsy´s last blog ..Look what I made =-.
Dera Said,
February 13, 2010 @ 3:17 pm
wow. you are an amazing person, gifted with such a beautiful way of sharing. i am so inspired by this story, in ways you don’t even know. xoxo/dera
Dera Said,
February 13, 2010 @ 3:19 pm
by the way, my hub, terry, read this too. he never pays attention to blogs. especially the ones i read. but he was so moved by this, he wanted me to tell you that (and i quote) “you are awesome”. that is all.
.-= Dera´s last blog ..A Beagle In Boots… =-.
seekingclarav Said,
February 14, 2010 @ 5:17 am
You are a very brave woman. Thank you for your perspective on working the steps and AA in general. I have been going to a regular meeting but haven’t gone beyond step 1. I know I have work to do, to cleanse and honor my spirit, not sure what I am waiting for…
Thanks again, much appreciated.
.-= seekingclarav´s last blog ..March 2007 =-.
Lisa R. Reply:
February 14th, 2010 at 6:03 pm
With help from others, I have found that working the steps is SO much easier than not working them. You may find that too.
Caroline Reply:
February 14th, 2010 at 8:17 pm
I agree with this 100%. If I put half as much effort into working the steps as I did trying to avoid A.A. . . . .
.-= Caroline´s last blog ..Dear 10-Month Old Bitlet =-.
Caroline Said,
February 14, 2010 @ 5:39 pm
Lisa, thank you for sharing a part of your story, your experience, strength, and courage, for carrying the message to at least one alcoholic who really needed the message this morning.
.-= Caroline´s last blog ..Dear 10-Month Old Bitlet =-.
Kim Said,
February 15, 2010 @ 12:28 am
well..i read most of your blog posts cos you are funny and make me laugh. This blog post was incredible. I loved it. Im not an alcoholic I drink once a year maybe..i like the honesty.
Rebecca Said,
February 15, 2010 @ 11:06 pm
No matter who you are or what you have going on in your life, that one day at a time stuff is pretty powerful. I think i need to get it tattooed to my forehead.
Thanks for the post, Lisa.
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..Kill the Critic! =-.
WarsawMommy Said,
February 16, 2010 @ 8:26 am
Lisa,
What a strong, brave woman you are! My hat is off to you and I am cheering my lungs out.
My 5-year anniversary without a drink fell this past November 27th. So much of what you wrote is ME, and the more alcoholics in recovery that I talk to, the more I see how much we – especially women who struggle with alcohol and drug abuse – have in common. It all starts from the deepest, darkest core of self-loathing, doesn’t it? A fear of living, a fear of failing, a fear of just existing.
Thank you.
Tina Said,
March 4, 2010 @ 7:34 am
Lisa–Such a powerful story. How you tell it shows how much you’ve created meaning and empowerment out of hard hard experiences. You are a testament to how powerful awareness is and how possible not just change is, but restoration and healing. Thank you.