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Posted by Stefanie Wilder Taylor on February 19, 2010 7:09 am • Don't Get Drunk Friday • 18 comments
Kir Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 1:48 pm
wow, these stories are so powerful to me. Thank you for sharing this and GOOD LUCK with your recovery.
I love the analogy of the Footprints before you. Much like my struggle with Infertility or anxiety after being a mom, I know that if I follow others that have gone before me I can make it. I have a light to get me there.
wonderful post!!!!
Gretchen Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 3:02 pm
And we will follow in the ones you leave! Thank you for that Cynthia. We are never as alone as we feel in our struggles. Know that we, in our own quiet, lonely ways, are also trudging along with you, making the daily choice not to drink, use, purge.
Happy Sober Friday.
Brooke Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 3:13 pm
“As far back as I can remember, I never felt comfortable in my own skin.” I think that so many of us can relate to this. I know I can. Although 49 days into sobriety, it seems to have eased up a bit. Thanks for sharing Cynthia.
.-= Brooke´s last blog ..rubies and love songs =-.
Rebecca Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 3:21 pm
It seems like so many of us (me included!) can relate to feeling awkward in our skin and anxious about various things – these feelings often going back to childhood. With all these stories, I keep circling back to girlhood and self-esteem and support networks. I am wondering, is there anything we could do to help GIRLS with these feelings so that they might be able to grow up and maybe, maybe avoid addiction issues as grown women?
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..Writers and Gossip =-.
Brooke Reply:
February 19th, 2010 at 4:59 pm
In reading Mary Pipher’s Writing to Change the World I have a reminder to myself to re-read Reviving Ophelia. It’s a great read on the plight of teens today (well, it’s a bit dated now), maybe there is some insight there.
.-= Brooke´s last blog ..rubies and love songs =-.
robin Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 4:30 pm
I LOVE the footstep comparison!! So right on, I’m gonna tuck it away in my brain for future use. Thanks for sharing. You are brave and we are lucky to have your story to help us along the path to recovery.
.-= robin´s last blog ..shoelaces =-.
Ellie Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 5:42 pm
Thank you for sharing this. I can really relate to knowing I had a problem with alcohol, going to AA and then vowing that I would lick this on my own. I just wasn’t done yet. I tried everything to control it – now with the additional motivation that I never wanted to step foot in another AA meeting. I failed. Once I surrendered, realized that this was waaay bigger than me and it was kicking my ass, I went back to AA and asked for help. It saved me. I went kicking and screaming, but eventually I wanted to be there, I wanted to stay sober for ME.
I can also relate to the not feeling comfortable in my skin, to the wanting to self-medicate the bad feelings away. Motherhood escalated my drinking a TON. It is the amazing friendships with other women who are just like me, and you, who are out there fighting the brave fight that keep me sober today.
Thank you so much.
-Ellie
.-= Ellie´s last blog ..Coming In For A Landing =-.
Natika Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 6:14 pm
I hate the basic addiction question…what’s next?
Well in my entire 8wks 5days sobriety, I hope it’s exercise!
Very well done Cynthia!
robin Reply:
February 20th, 2010 at 2:29 am
congrats to you!
.-= robin´s last blog ..shoelaces =-.
seekingclarav Said,
February 19, 2010 @ 6:42 pm
I love Don’t Drink Fridays, these stories of strength help me so much.
I have a hard time going to my meetings…I have some of the same thoughts about it that you did. I always feel better after I go, so I try to dwell on that when I am feeling lazy and scared beforehand.
Thank you for being brave, sharing your struggles and giving me hope.
.-= seekingclarav´s last blog ..53 days and deep =-.
Mommy on the Spot Said,
February 20, 2010 @ 2:37 am
I can’t tell you how much I love your blog. I really like your Don’t Get Drunk Friday posts. I feel like I am always getting closer to understanding those in my life with addiction. And in a family where we aren’t really allowed to talk about it, I can’t tell you how much I appreciate this insight. Thank you.
.-= Mommy on the Spot´s last blog ..Thank you and then some!! =-.
Caroline Said,
February 20, 2010 @ 3:47 am
I, too, love the footstep imagery at the end of your post. It’s just such an apt analogy. We follow those who went before, and left our own for those who come after us . . . and then, we travel back the same way, revisiting the same tracks again, and again, in an effort to stepping off course and falling on our asses.
I really loved the thoughts that paragraph brought me! Thanks, Cynthia!
.-= Caroline´s last blog ..Dear 10-Month Old Bitlet =-.
Cynthia Said,
February 20, 2010 @ 1:18 pm
Thank you to everyone ( and Stefanie) for letting me share!
.-= Cynthia´s last blog ..Yoga Girl =-.
Sadie Said,
February 21, 2010 @ 5:00 pm
Cyn,
Your story has me crying. I still feel that way when calling people in AA when I need help. In true form I thought I was the only one who felt awkward and needy when reaching out. I have been isolated for so long that it is comfortable to me. Reaching out and admitting that I can’t do it on my own is hard every day. Thank you for your story and strength.
Love,
Sadie
Lisa Rae @ smacksy Said,
February 21, 2010 @ 6:40 pm
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Your footprints analogy will stay with me.
.-= Lisa Rae @ smacksy´s last blog ..Smacksy Sunday Link: Nature Boy =-.
David Broadwell Said,
February 22, 2010 @ 8:55 pm
Hi, please view our site: http://www.forantonia.wordpress.com I need your help in spreading the word. I only know a handful of people and I desperately need your help.
Signed,
A concerned Dad and Husband
Daily Cup of Jo Said,
February 24, 2010 @ 4:41 am
I stumbled on your site from DadGoneMad. So glad I did. I’ve been sober a long time and I always thought those who came in and were much too comfortable at their first few AA meetings, usually didn’t stick around. It’s awkward and humiliating in the beginning — and then, it’s not and life changes. The footsteps in the snow was perfect. Nice job.
.-= Daily Cup of Jo´s last blog ..Tuesday tidbits: I can see clearly now =-.
Maggie, dammit Said,
March 6, 2010 @ 1:23 pm
This is so lovely. It really is. And there is so much I can relate to.
Thank you for this.
.-= Maggie, dammit´s last blog ..What it’s like now =-.