Sometimes no news is good news and sometimes no news can just frustrate the shit out you. I’d been waiting for Sadie to morph into the Michelin Baby overnight from all the food she’s taking in now that her yeast infection is clearing up, so after taking her back to the doctor, I was surprised to find that she’d only gained one ounce. He told me to be patient. “She will gain but she has to get used to eating again”… or something like that – I was having trouble focusing on anything but the fact that she’d only gained one ounce. Plus, patience is definitely not my strong suit. Most of the time, the microwave takes way too long for my taste.
People have given me this advice countless times and now I am going to give it to you: stay away from Google if you are at all worried about your child’s health. Google is not a licensed practitioner and in fact, Google is quite the alarmist. So take one alarmist search engine and pair it with a couple of neurotic minds and naturally, my husband and I diagnosed our daughter with William’s Syndrome (I purposely didn’t link to this) as the cause of Sadie’s smallness. It really made sense at the time, low birth weight? Check. A wide upper lip? Sort of!! Turned up nose? Oh my God, yes. It made so much sense that I called my pediatrician on his cellphone (I know – are you kidding me? Who does that? I blame him. He should NEVER have given me that number) on a Sunday no less, to ask him if that was possible. Shockingly, he didn’t sound annoyed but did tell me that it was highly unlikely and that William’s Syndrome presents with heart problems much more major than the slight murmer Sadie has. But was that enough for me? No. I called the GI the next day (mainly because he was smart enough not to give me a cellphone #) and then my husband and I gritted our teeth waiting for him to call back. Five hours later, a very confused sounding Dr. Bahar, told me it was “phenomenally unlikely” that that was the cause of Sadie’s slow gain and to try my best to calm down and see what happens at her next appointment (tomorrow).
For the record, many mothers do have children with all kinds of syndromes and health problems and if Sadie had something like that, obviously, we’d be devastated but we’d deal with it. It’s the not knowing and hanging in limbo that can drive your brain to crazy thoughts and anxiety.
Meanwhile, Matilda of the chunky, good natured, hitting all milestones cuteness, starting screaming uncontrollably yesterday. Because of my now well documented neurosis and because her doctor’s office is practically walking distance, I rushed her in. Thank God she had an ear infection (has anyone ever been thankful for an ear infection?) or I would have felt like a complete paranoid lunatic.
So between the worry over the past few days and last night’s NO SLEEP AT ALL due to feeding Sadie every couple of hours and Matilda not sleeping because of her ear, you, dear readers are the beneficiary of my long and rambling post. Cheers.
I’ll update interested parties tomorrow with Sadie’s progress after her 10 a.m. appointment.