Hi. Feeling better yesterday and today. Just thought you should know. Because I'm sure you spent most of the last few days worried about that one blogger chick who sounds like she's hanging off the edge of a cliff. First off, upping the Zoloft has already helped I think. Plus, all the comments that I've received especially one from Kyddryn helped so much. It's amazing that whatever you're going through, someone out there gets it. Blogging is addictive and I believe that's why. You can write anything you want and no matter how crazy, someone will leave you a comment and have the guts to say "I know what you mean." Unfortunately, because this isn't a private blog, people who know me can easily Google me and find this. As it is I'm pretty open about everything but sometimes I do have to remember that the Internet isn't my personal diary because some of the sh*t that goes through my head is not for public consumption. But, if my crazy ranting can help even one person feel less like a freak than I will keep spewing it out.
When I wrote my first book, Sippy Cups, I was petrified of what people would think. It felt like it might be too snarky and poking fun of motherhood for all the precious moms out there. I worried that reader might think I'm not a good mother or that I didn't love my daughter etc. But I found that tons of people related to my thoughts that motherhood isn't a Sunny D commercial. It's deep, profound, often extrememly enjoyable, life altering in a good way but not the way it's depicted in most books and commercials. It was an amazing and wonderful feeling to find out by going public in a book that I wasn't alone at all. I was angry when I had Elby and found this stuff out the hard way. And that probably came across in the book. This next book is no less snarky but a lot less pissed because let's face it, toddlers are insane and illogical but not nearly as taxing as brand new babies. At least that's what I keep telling myself while I'm in the throes of these newborns...
I guess what I'm trying to say is, if you really want to make me feel better, buy my damn book! Just kidding. Kind of serious though.
Posted by Stefanie Wilder Taylor on January 19, 2008 6:38 pm
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