Hey if that title doesn’t get a bunch of crazy random Google hits I don’t know what will – okay maybe “chocolate brown lesbian sisters making sweet love to each other” but let’s not go there. Actually, speaking of porn, and this may seem unrelated at first but bear with me, since I started pumping milk, when I can’t pump next to my twins, I’ve needed to look at pictures of them on my computer to get the milk flowing. At first it was good enough to bring up a mental picture of them in my mind and fantasize about holding them until that brought on a trickle but soon I had to move on to the hard stuff, actual photos staring right at me. Truth be told, I even googled “preemie babies” to have a little variety of poses and adorable t-shirts. Okay, let’s not speak of this again.
Some of you may know (especially if you’ve read my book – at least the part I took a lot of heat for) that I had trouble breast-feeding my daughter. Actually, trouble would be an understatement. It was the hardest, most excrutiatingly painful thing I’ve ever done and I stopped after a few weeks. And yes, I took a lot of heat for it especially when I wrote about my experience in my book. I’ll I wrote was the truth and some people just didn’t want to hear it or felt threatened by my telling people it’s okay to make your own decision and your babies will turn out fine either way.
I’d decided that due to my last bout with post partum depression, I wouldn’t attempt to breast feed these babies and I felt semi-okay with my decision. But when I found out they’d be early that went out the window. I knew I had to at least pump as much milk as I could so they could get the best start I could possibly give them. I do make milk, but due to a breast reduction 20 + years ago, I don’t make a whole lot because not all my ducts work. So now I’m pumping round the clock itty bitty amounts for my itty bitty babies. But hey, this morning was a banner morning. I got almost an ounce (from both boobs)! Anyway, without furthur delay, here are my little gals.
Here’s Sadie in her sweet cute, daddy’s arms. Sadie has some growning to do. Right now she’s at Nicole Richie’s pre-pregnancy weight. Our goal is to get her to Nicole’s 5-month pregnant weight before we take her home.
This is Matilda. You can tell because she’s so fat. Don’t worry, in a few weeks if this keeps up I’ll put her on Atkins. Or have The Zone brought in to the NICU everyday. But that can get a little pricey.
This one is Sadie. Little tiny beautiful Sadie. She’s getting her very first bottle to test out her “suck.” Did you know that just the act of sucking down a bottle burns off more calories than this little ones can afford? That’s why they are only allowed one bottle a day for awhile. It’s so funny because this is like when I eat a whole box of cookies. I burn so many calories doing it I just have to lay down for awhile and watch TV.
And here’s Matilda having her first bottle. It’s hard to tell them apart unless you’re in the room with them and can see that Mattie is DOUBLE Sadie’s weight but still, she’s drinking like a champ and with that, I must go visit them.