Yes, you read the title correctly. Okay, here it is. The thing that’s been on my mind. The thing that’s been driving me half insane with worry, with joy, with hormones. I’m knocked up – with twins. Twin girls to be exact. Can you believe it? Spontaneous twins. I’m 13 weeks along and just starting to feel less sick. I’m still tearing up inappropriately but how much of that is due to hormones and how much is due to HAVING TWINS I can’t be sure.
Jon and I decided approximately 3 and a half months ago to go for number two and apparently it took right away so we had very little time to take in the idea of a new addition. Then the beginning of this pregnancy was fraught with spotting and intense morning sickness. My OB told me the pregnancy didn’t look good. I changed doctors. But at week 8 I had a major bleed and ended up in the ER where we found out that not only didn’t I lose the pregnancy but there were two in there. Needless to say we were shocked. And no, twins don’t run in our family and yes, I’ve heard that at 40 you are likely to drop two eggs when you ovulate but I’ve also heard it’s still pretty rare to conceive twins naturally.
Later when I went for the CVS considering my “very advanced maternal age” although not as advance as Nancy Grace, hello 47 with twins, I was told I’d started out with triplets and lost one. So mystery bleeding solved.
How am I feeling? Exhausted, overwhelmed and worried that I’m going to have to buy a minivan. I wasn’t at all sure I even wanted two kids let alone three so this has been a bit jarring. On the other hand, it’s an opportunity to rise to the occasion. I wasn’t sure I wanted one child and now I can barely look at my daughter without tearing up at how beautiful she is and how much better my life is with her in it. So maybe it will just be that much more lovely to have three girls!
In the interest of full disclosure, I can’t say that I was happy to hear it was twins. I felt pure fear. But what are you going to do? Life is about the unexpected. If anyone has any good advice for dealing with three kids, I’m open to it. But, now that everything’s okay, I’m getting a teesy bit excited!
Let the name hunt begin.