My husband didn’t like my last post. He felt it was kind of gross and personal and that the internet is not a great forum for gross and personal. Seeing as my husband is a reasonable man who doesn’t beat me on a regular basis, I decided to respect his feelings and take it off. This doesn’t mean I won’t still be personal cause that’s just me but I guess talking about another man doing something kind of gross to my hip was a little too much for the man I’m currently married to.
I don’t think I’ve blogged much about my husband. He likes to keep things on the down low and I guess I just like to spout about tons of personal shit. Not that he shushes me or anything but there’s the look especially when I’m about three Pinot Grigios in that says, “Do you have to tell people everything?” and I guess I do.
Maybe it’s because I never felt “heard” as a child? Maybe it’s because I’m constantly searching for people who relate to me. People who get it. Whatever it is. I’ve always felt different and it makes me feel better when I find out that people aren’t perfect and when they tell me their faults and vulnerabilities and just maybe I do it to get the ball rolling. But let’s get off the analysts couch and dish about my husband whether it makes his skin crawl or not.
He’s awesome. I got very lucky in this department. It’s a long story but we met online. I was new to AOL and was trolling through people’s profiles to see if anyone had a good sense of humor. At that point it was a dating thing but I have to say, I’m not above it to this day. I just went on a blind date with a new friend I met on Myspace! yes, I’m fifteen. But she was really cool, had a funny profile, was married and lived down the street from me. And now we’re madly in love. Anyway, I found J’s profile on AOL and found it to be amusing so I instant messaged him. He didn’t know who the hell I was and was a bit suspicious. But his profile said that he was in television so I said “I understand from your profile that you’re in television. It just so happens that I need to buy a new one. Do you have any tips?” We were off and running from there. four months later we decided to meet for coffee where I quickly decided he wasn’t my type. but I couldn’t just break up with him. That would be lame. He’d think it was all about looks and he was cute. Just not my type or so I thought. So I gave it a few dates and fell hard in love.
He is consistant and loving and level headed and logical. Just like a man. I am emotional, tend to cling to my past, sometimes vindictie but also love him as much as it’s humanly possible to love someone. And, with my backround, I’m always (not always but when under stress) paranoid that he’ll ditch me and my neurosis.
But we are celebrating our 2nd anniversary this Wed. and we’ve been together almost 7 years. We missed Valentine’s day completely because we were in the ER together with our daughter. Isn’t that kind of a Love Is cartoon? Love Is…no chocolate cause your kid is hooked up to an IV. Cute, right?